I have been keeping a journal of the things that God lays on my heart. I don't really know why I started but I know that God will use my families trials to open their eyes to a God that is greater than we all realize.
This makes my heart break.
God is changing lives through this.
I want God to use Ethan but I want to take him home and hold him.
My daughter Helen has always loved to put money in the "Children's Miracle" coin collectors. They have many in the lobby of the Children's Hospital where Ethan lives. She loves to watch the money go round and round. I sometimes got frustrated at her because I didn't want to slow down to put any money in. You see Helen was doing something she loved to do and she had no
way of knowing that she was giving money to an organization that would be helping her little brother one day. God was using Helen. I am trying not to question God. I remember the story of the Israelites when they started to doubt God on the way to the promise land. God had them wander in the wilderness and they never got to see the promise land...I want to see the promise land. I am looking forward to holding my child. I have taken that for granted. He lies there very sensitive to touch, so we can barely touch him. When I can hold him in my arms I will weep and rejoice! I will never tell him I don't have time for him or Helen. I can only imagine the embrace of our heavenly Father and His Son when He got to heaven. My testimony will never be the same. My faith will never be the same. My weak witness will never be the same. My weak walk will never be the same. I challenge any man that is not in love with the Lord and raising his family according to the Holy Word to start now. Pray right now and tell God that you are a sinner and invite Him into your heart claim His death on the cross and it's forgiving healing power. You see you may live for a long time and have plenty of time to live for Jesus but someone in your family may not. By not telling them about Christ and living as an example you are putting them in danger. You are helping Satan drag them to Hell. Give every piece of your life to Christ and your family will follow you and respect you. He has given me strength when I needed it and let me cry like a child when I didn't. But my pastor reminded me that God saves up our tears...they are precious treasures to Him. God hears our prayers. I am learning so much about praying. I am learning how to pray specifically. Please let me know if you need prayer right now and my wife and I will pray for you because we desire the Lords strength and grace to with anyone struggling or hurting. Please join us in praying for Tyler he is 8 and has severe kidney problems...continue to lift up JR, Rudy and Kimberly. We have had very specific prayers answered in the last 24hrs...Praise the Lord. Hebrews 4:16 " Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need." As I get ready to go to sleep my wife and I cry and laugh at the comments on this blog. Everyone wants to help and we want you to know that you can help by making sure that you know the Lord Jesus as your personal Savior. And if He is, then lead your family boldly in His word.
We love you Kerry & Bonnie,
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